I'm back...

Hi.. been MIA for a few mths.. not feeling really well to blog recently as i'm suffering fr morning sickness... yes.. i'm preg again..

somehow, wondering if it's bcoz i'm a 2nd time mommy liao.. so not feeling as excited as when i was expected with PH.. somehow, i'm not too enthu abt this preg.. maybe morning sickness plays a part as well.. haven't been eating well and feeling especially sensitive to smell.. the last time i shop was few mths ago.. the last time i accompany PH out for playtime was oso few mths ago.. ever since MS started, i stop almost all outdoor activities.. not sure if all these are getting to me as i'm really feeling very moody most of the time.. perhaps it's the hormones acting up.. or maybe simply the lack of activities in my life..

or maybe i'm simply worried abt wat to do with childcare when bb is finally out.. i still haven't plan the childcare arrangement yet.. is it to my in laws like last time? or a maid, or a nanny, or infant care? we still haven't discuss.. i dun feel like the mood.. coz i dunnoe wat i want as well..

all these moody thoughts are affecting work too.. dun feel like working always.. but still got to go work.. coz i dunnoe wat to do at home too.. it's harder to pass time at home than at work.. but at work, i will constantly be worried abt the pathogens involved.. next wk, i will be doing Vibrio station.. hai..

anyway, not to worried everyone with this post.. it's juz venting.. maybe by writing it down n reading it, it will help me to find direction and hopefully solve my moodiness... i do not wish to let this kind of mood dominate me n affect my unborn...